Getting Back to It

WOW. To think I've been out of training for almost a month. And no blog post?!?! Time to set that to rights :)

My time home since graduation has been... colorful. Tumultuous. Inspiring. Heartbreaking. I've crammed a lot into the last month, really. Let's start at the beginning...

My graduation was marked with a much needed weekend to Myrtle Beach. Scott and Dustin and I tore it up down there, and it was the perfect transition to civilian life for me. I ran the beach every morning, and God did it feel good.to.feel the sand under my bare feet :) There was much drinking at night... good God did we drink, lol. And there was catching up with my boys that I'd missed so much while I was away.

The night before we were to drive home, as I was truly relaxing for the first time in 20 weeks and vegging out in front of the TV, my phone lit up. I had a new text message. I smiled when I saw it was from Josh. I hadn't had much opportunity to talk to him that weekend, and I was so excited to go home and see him the next day. I stepped into the next room to read the message, and had to read it several times before it sank in.

He dumped me. By text message. The night before I was coming home to him.

My heart broke. And as I paced the beach that night in the dark, tears running down my face, it was my battles I called first... those wonderful ladies that I had endured the last several months of hardship with... and they saw me through the hardship that night too. I'm a lucky woman.

The next few weeks were... rough. Josh and I got together for drinks and to talk a couple times. He apologized. I couldn't forgive. The trust was gone for me. I still don't understand how I can love someone I don't trust.

To get my mind off of Josh I did a number of things over the next couple weeks. I went out and danced my tail off. I ran. I went truck shopping. I spent a lot of time getting my civilian life back in order. And then... then I left for the Army again.

And that's where Im at now. I'm going through Guardian Justice training at a sub-camp of Camp McGregor, inthe middle of the New Mexico desert.

AND I'M HAVING A BLAST.

Life is good. My new battles are the bomb. Yeah... Im still a lucky woman :)